My wife and I had lunch with a couple last weekend.  They are friends in our town.  He is a money manager who recently opened up his own business and she is an energy healer with her own practice,. She’s worked with both my wife and me.  She has an amazing ability to see energy in her clients and help them figure out how to release blocks, heal wounds and help the energy flow again in the way in which it was intended. I don’t consciously understand how she works or what she is doing, but know that it is divinely assisted.  We tease her that her that her business is a “front” for her true work, which none of us could really understand anyway.

At the end of our lunch I opened up to them about my interest in teaching meditation.  I was feeling embarrassed to admit this publicly to a broader audience, because I was afraid that it didn’t fit with the persona I had created and lived as for most of my life.  She just sort of looked at me.  She doesn’t always say much, almost like she’s listening to or seeing an invisible energy guiding her words.  She will only reveal so much – she often says she’s not “allowed” to say more (which drives me bananas – “just tell me!”).  She just said, “There’s a great book called the Four Agreements, you should read it.”  My ego flared up – “I’ve read it,” I said. “Read it again,” she replied with a smile.  “I’ve read it twice,” I said more firmly.  “Read it again,” she repeated, still smiling.

She wouldn’t say much else.  Her husband was also really supportive.  He’s been going through a lot himself with the decision he made to leave his old job and step out on his own.  Still, for some reason I was angry and resistant, and I don’t really know why.

I was irritated the rest of the night…”Read it again!” – what is that supposed to mean?  I slept, but not well.  I was awake at 4:30 on Sunday morning, thoughts running through my head.  I woke up and got something to eat, then I went down to the basement.  I opened up Four Agreements again and quickly worked my way through it, wondering what could possibly be there that I had missed the first two times.

It took a few days to reflect on it, but I could see that I was probably violating all of these agreements in some way.  I was taking things personally, making assumptions, and I’m not sure I was doing my best.  This little push propelled me to disclose publicly, via Twitter, Instagram and (gasp!) LinkedIn, that I wanted to teach meditation to groups of people.  I offered to do it for free to anyone who would gather 5 or more people.  I was scared of being ridiculed, and pleasantly surprised at the response.  I received several responses of interest from friends, a basketball coach, and a book club.  I’m teaching the first session next weekend.  I also am learning how to do Guided Healing Meditations in a one-on-one setting.  I had only previously worked with my wife, but two days ago we did a session with my sister-in-law.  It was amazing.  She received the most beautiful healing messages.

Yesterday was particularly fun.  That morning I checked flights for every possible combination to take my family to Florida to visit my parents.  All of the flights seemed too expensive.  I moved on and decided to spend some time transcribing my sister-in-law’s session from the day before.  It was the most interesting, highest excitement activity for me.  That afternoon I took a break and checked my email. Frontier was running a 50% off sale.  I re-ran my search and found flights and a rental car well within our budget. The only potential issue was we’d have to stay two extra days (how is that a problem?).  I made a couple of phone calls and extended the stay easily.  Next I got on the phone with a potential client who is making a decision on hiring a new service provider for their entire operation – four different businesses – and wondered if that’s something I’d be interested in (Yes, it is!).  It’s funny how when I relaxed and let go, things just seemed to flow.

And finally, this morning during meditation I think I understood the part about being impeccable with your word. We are divine creators.  We create every moment with our thoughts, beliefs, words and actions.  Being impeccable with your word isn’t just about keeping promises.  It’s about being conscious and deliberate about about the words you speak, because they have the power to create.  We are not victims of circumstance.  We are creating our reality.  And if we want to create something different, we need to think, feel, act and speak differently.  Speak only of things you wish to create, to grow, to cause to flourish.  When we speak of things we don’t want, we just create more of it.  As we learn to choose our words “impeccably”, we will be doing our part to create the world in which we want to live.